A lot has changed for me this past year. There is a red pill turning blue pill and back again story, like many others, with the back again part feeling pretty good. For the most part.

About 4 months ago I started to follow monk mode pointers. Reflected a lot and learned a lot. I have goals, plans even, for the future. But I lack efficiency. I'm studying a degree that is useful to get a job but I have no idea of what the next steps could be. I'm working in a dead end mindless job with (for now its good) shitty wage if I want to get somewhere. I have friends but none of them with similar objectives to mine and there needs to be some care with words near them, most are pure blue pill. Feels like I'm stuck in life and can't find the way out of this frustrating circle.

/rant