25 year old here who lost virginity a couple of years ago to a hooker. i have always had issues when it came to women however i have been on the redpill for about 2 years now. started lifting, eating right, got plenty of hobbies etc. still not really going after women that much but have made a lot of personal progress. I also come from an extremely catholic family (i dont consider my self catholic but grew up in house where sex is something you do after you get married)

Something is still wrong. was out with a girl that is pretty much asking to be fucked, sending all the signals through texts + irl. i just couldnt do it. i didnt make a move idk why, really struggling with this. worse than that, i gave her a 20-30 mins massage and for some reason i start pre cumming ... what the actual fuck. ideas ? is there someshit i can read ?