Let me start by saying this is not a bragging post , just one of genuine confusion.

From 15-21 I went through the usual , LTR to get cheated on etc , I discovered way before I knew what the red pill was , the true nature of women , I was on the floor crying like a bitch when my first LTR (age 14-19) dumped me and was litrally giggling and couldn’t understand why I was upset that the girl I lived with had cheated on me , completely changed the way she dresses / her hair in a matter of days and was with this new guy. Similar happened a few more times and I concluded that women basically have no remorse when fucking a guy over in that way.

I now fully internalise trp and I’m way over the anger phase , what confuses me is SMV and retaining women.

I am 5’6 , 30 years old , mixed race (black ) , stocky build , around 20% body fat , always been really bad with Money and debt , drive a shit car (didn’t drive until I was 28) , and most importantly , was raised by a single mother and no male figure , and always surrounded by females , never fit in with the guys at school / work , was a total beta , yet , I have never ever had trouble getting the interest of women or maintaining a few plates , what I don’t understand is why since I have so much against me ?

All girls have been anythjng from 6’s to 9’s, even a few tens , eventually some have left after I’ve failed shit test after shit test , but I dont understand why some guys on here can’t even get laid in the first place ?