I can’t help but smile and greet people. I try to be everyone’s friend. I’m not doing it with good intent. I do it to validate myself as a worthy human being. Makes me feel better when someone smiles back or makes me feel bad when they don’t. It’s fucking weak and pathetic.

I’ve just started lifting however I can’t seem to push myself. Have a defeatist mindset in the gym but I’ve been going everyday. I feel helpless boys