Hey fellas, happy new year.

I'm 23, in grad school. Swallowed the Pill 6 months ago after a horrible break up with first real gf ever (2+ year LTR).

My question for you all tonight is whether my progression through the anger phase is what would be considered "normal." I don't sleep very well (never have, really) and I get distracted at school sometimes by how fucking shitty and true TRP is.

I lift, diet, read, study, spin 3 plates at the moment, etc, but if I'm to be completely honest my ex was an HB8+ and the hottest of my plates right now is maybe a 7.5-8. I fucking KNOW how pathetic it is to say but my ex had some of the greatest tits I've ever seen in my life and it infuriates me that I haven't been able to find someone in the last 6+ months that I'm as physically attracted to.

I know what you guys are going to say: yes it gets better. Keep improving, etc. But I'm fuming as I type this and I want to get a better hold on how angry I get sometimes. Advice from the community on how to divert my frustration or harness my anger or whatever would be appreciated. I've tried to meditate a million times but it never really does anything for me. My head spins regardless.

Sorry to bother you guys with this, probably should just continue to suffer in silence, but thanks.

Roll Tide.