I’m on summer break. It’s the first summer I haven’t had a job since I was 14 (I’m 21 now). I got injured at the start of the summer and wasn’t able to secure my usual job. I’ve been working side jobs when I can so money currently isn’t much of an issue though.

Anyway I’ve been trying to self-improve since I can’t work. I work out and lift every day, I’ve changed my diet and lost 20 pounds, Learned new skills (speaking Spanish, driving stick, etc.), and I try to spend as much time as I can outside of my house in the most social environments I can find.

I just got out of a very long LTR with a girl as well. The breakup destroyed me honestly, but it also eventually led me to RP. I have a few plates that I hit up every now and then. But I still have oneitis pretty badly. I truly want to just move on with my life but I feel like no matter how hard I try I can’t manage to do it. I’ve accepted the happiness is an emotion that I will not experience for a while.

I guess what I’m trying to ask is when does it get better?