Hey guys. My birthday is next week and i'll be a 21 year old 5'7 virgin.

I've been lifting and reading for the last 4 months and have been making great progress in that regard. I dress well, i'm funny, i'm good at talking to people once i know them.

My first problem is that i'm stuck in blue pill thinking still. I've always just wanted the one good girl etc etc. Now i see these "innocent" looking girls and hear shit about them hoeing around and instead of disqualifying them for being sluts, it breaks my heart.

I've had a massive crush on this one girl that i havent even talked to. Keep putting her on a mental pedestal and all i can think is that she's probably bouncing on some guys' dicks.

I have great friends and a good support group but my focus is on my purpose right now which requires a ton of studying at least for the next 3 months. It just feels lonely sometimes man, you see your friends in relationships or people on social media having a good time and it makes you question when you'll have all that.

Sorry for the rant, idk what i'm even asking tbh, but throw some wisdom at me if you feel me.