Hello TRP, this question contains a great deal of psychology, and I am visiting a therapist right now but I want to ask your opinion about this. What do you think my future life will be after getting out of this vicious circle?

I am now almost 19 years old, starting college in about 4 months. Not wanting to write a huge wall of text so I'm going to list everything as short as possible:

  1. Be raised by a single mother (pretty much fate sealed since day 1). Now I'm still having issues with the subconscious need of being beta with women.
  2. Mother unwillingly keeping me more introverted as I started school, become comfortable with staying at home without much social life. Now I'm starting to get more extroverted again but I'm developing bipolar syndrome.
  3. Mother giving me crap food and never telling me to exercise. Was overweight. I can't say that she didn't care about me, but she was a very feminine creature herself, who stayed single through the time she raised me, so not a lot of masculine stuff in her mind to instruct me.
  4. I'm now about 11 years old. Start feeling horny. Try approaching girls. Being overweight and introverted = nothing.
  5. 13 years old. Feel contempt about this, there's nothing to do right now. Start masturbating on a daily basis, draining all my energy, making me even worse.
  6. 16 years old. Start getting sexually frustrated as my testosterone increases a lot. I'm a very high test dude now too. Start arguing with girls and fighting with other males at school, it was my worst time ever.
  7. 17 years old. Get extremely sexually frustrated, but being a virgin I was very limited in my approaches. What I did next pretty much started my entire array of mental issues I'm dealing with now: I went to a prostitute.
  8. About right after that I started going to the gym. My testosterone levels were absolutely enormous.
  9. 17.5 years old. No longer a virgin I attempting dating. I actually started looking physically better since losing my virginity and starting working out. But oh no, fate is not good with me; I have a shit fate to begin with. I first of all didn't understand shit tests, but once I learned to deal with them came my main problem: being raised by a single mother I had an urging need to be beta. I never got laid through a date.
  10. 18 years old. Now I'm starting to get sexually frustrated to the point that I developed OCD. I was literally raging and obsessively overthinking stuff to the point of exhaustion. It was triggered by anything sexual, literally anything.
  11. 18.5 years old. Feel contempt about all this again, despite having girls checking me out I never approached them because I knew that my personality is fucked up and that I'll mostly confuse the girl. Go to prostitutes again, for a total of 6 times. This only temporarily solves my sexual frustration, as 1 week later I always needed to have sex again with prostitutes.
  12. 18.75 years old. I was casually walking on the street. My OCD gets triggered by a couple kissing. I attacked the dude, breaking 2 ribs, his nose, and some concussions. I couldn't stop hitting him, being fueled by raging testosterone. Also being 6'1 with pretty decent muscle mass it was difficult for anyone to stop me. Police arrived, handcuffed me and I was sent to jail for 12 days. Luckily with no criminal record, as my country has a pretty complex law system. After getting out of jail I was sent to a mental hospital, but after 1 day my mother got me out of there. I constantly argued with her, that it's only her fault that I'm this frustrated, because she raised me in a feminine and introverted fashion. But it isn't her fault, she's a woman, she did her best. It's my shitty fate...
  13. We got out of any legal issues but my mother had to pay half of the guy's hospital bill, which wasn't cheap. In the meantime my grandfather finally died of cancer. I was sent into a very deep state of depression. I had some lame suicide attempts like swallowing pills and shit (this is where Borderline syndrome started kicking in, as I never actually attempted a concrete suicide method, I was pretty much hysterical). Luckily I never self-harmed myself and the other damage to my body was minimal to 0.
  14. Three months later I started to go to a therapist. So I have Bipolar syndrome, Borderline and OCD. They can all be solved in a form or another, but I will always be an ambivert, as my introverted and extroverted mind will always be in conflict. Also my personality will always be shit, I became very selfish too. And I will always feel this subconscious need of being beta. I don't know, it's no problem being a beta male if you have a strong frame, value in society, confidence and money, but we all know women are fucked up creatures and I will, possibly forever, live a bad quality life.
  15. Right now. Starting to recover, no longer depressed, OCD under control. Going to the gym again but doing more cardio to avoid building excess testosterone. Although antidepressants are not very good with building muscle, I'm getting some small gains.

So guys, what will be your advice on all of this? As I really want to ask successful men who have heard about this type of cases. Would I get to live at least a half-decent life, with at least a decent career and at least meeting some women? I am very concerned now with starting college (yes in my country we start college at 19), as my confidence is shattered into a million pieces right now.