Hi guys,

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The last weeks I've realized I became kind of a yo-yo, if thinks go well, I get a kiss or fuck, I feel like I can handle everything, there's no doubt, no trouble getting out of bed. However, when something of a negative happens, for example multiple days with rejections, or other things in general not working out despite trying. I feel really low, very frustrated and have trouble bouncing back, "have I lost it?","was it just a normal rejection or am I really fucking this up?".

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It feels like all of a sudden there has become a really thin line between the opposite sides, but I used to have more resilience and be much more balanced. In general for quite sometime things in my live have gone downhill, divorced parents, family in trouble, relative passed away, current lack of money etc. This causes the scenario where, when I put my energy into something I really really really want it to work out, because the rest isn't where I would have liked it to be.

Am I just a spoiled shit or would I first need a break to recover and get back to the drawing table instead of fiddling around?