When I met her I was an active, social, hardworking and very fit man. Nowadays Im having a hard time keeping up with my standards.

I got severely sick about an year ago. Of course due to being red pilled before I didnt tell her nothing as Im aware of the outcome.

I kept the illusion that I still got my job, and that I have an active life. I did all well and never had trouble... The only trouble is the stress of pretending to have a social life.

We live in different cities. She comes to visit everyweekend and we talk everyday. On monday if she is still around I will leave the house and pretend to go to work.

Then I broke up with her because I thought it was not worthy it... But after some months I got her back again ... Im not afraid to lose her... or that she leaves me... My biggest problem in my life is my health problem.

Therefore your red diablo advisement to keep her around for awhile would be good but if I fail its not a problem.

I need to pretend to have social life everyday.

I usually say that I go to the gym. Have a few friends that I say I meet. Have my fake job. And have some occasional ideas of things I pretend to do once in a while. But sometimes I feel kind of tired and dont know what to say and dont want to say I stayed at the house all day after work (when in reality I stay all day, and most of it in a bed hurting).

  • Could you give me ideas of things to do in this situation, regarding pretending to be okay, and pretending to have social life, job etc...Give me your ideas no matter how stupid they sound...