This might sound harsh but nature is harsh and that's reality. There's a spectrum of manifestation of hypergamy in a woman but I figuratively define women as donkeys who are able to talk, manipulate and fuck anything that gives them enough tingles. (Except if they heavily believe in a concept like god, then the last part is self-suppressed). I believe this is a correct definition based on teachings of multiple old cultures and my observation of nature. Despite that definition, I believe I can have a symbiotic relationship with a woman. However the part I have a problem with is trust.

Considering the nature of women, it is illogical to trust them. However psychologically SOME level of trust is required to have an emotional relationship. Without emotional connection, sex is less fun and relationship is more meaningless.

Am I going to have to blind myself to the nature of woman to trust and have more positive emotions? Is there another solution that you discovered other than willful blindness?

I want to have kids and I want women who are going to be mine until I'm dead, as much as one woman can be anyone's. I don't want to use her as just a child birther, dish washer, personal chef and fleshlight. I want to have some level of respect for her. I realize this is the result of societal conditioning and seeing women like I'm seeing myself. But I suspect that I might have a psychological need for it too. I think we evolved to delude ourselves. So I'm not sure what's the right thing to do.