Broke up with ex couple months ago due to noticing myself becoming beta and slipping in self improvement, she also was gaining weight, hasn’t had a job in year and was not motivated at all to do anything with her life, she couldn’t keep the house clean properly and was dramatic and lazy.

However she was a virgin when I met her and we were both 20 and had been dating close to two years. Sex life was healthy.

Since breaking up I’ve been fucking other girls and re establishing my goals and general life, have definitely become a lot more of a man than I was then. She got crazy after the breakup and made up a lot of false accusations, ended up getting a restraining order on her.

However I still feel sad and regretful over how it ended (I was a cunt as she kept trying to manipulate me to stay with her I.e suicide) and that if I played things right maybe it would have worked?

Even though she had a lot of cons she was 20 and I was her first (she did try and branch swing early on to a new guy before I found TRP)

Sleeping with girls and even the good ones that seem innocent until you fuck them and find out they’ve been passed around has made me depressed that I won’t find another low n count girl that I can be comfortable around like that, that If I had played my cards right her crazy ass could have been someone I stuck with for a long time.