Hey,

My age 18, and I was always blue, always polite, always gentleman to get my hope that someone like me. Since I have only mother, she taught me this is the way how men should live, since my childhood I didn't have a real friend, especially if it was a girl. I was laughed at by most girls I've ever met.

Just a month ago only person that "believed in me" broke up with me and wants me to leave hear alone. After 2 years I realised she used me just for attention, because I was available and nice, but now she doesn't need me anymore. I was her second choice to keep. My depression got worse, so my self-esteem, but now..

I don't give up, I am hungry to learn, I am hungry to be selfish, I finally want to be successful and satisfied with my life. Even after reading TRP for some time, I wish if there isn't any specific tips for newbies that have been lonely and friendless for entire life. I don't care about revenge, because it was my mistake, I am not mad, because it was my mistake, but now, it's all in my hands, and that's why I write there.

Thanks.