So im going 20 this year, and my confidence has been going down the drain, im still a virgin which haunts me everyday, I had chances on high school but my video games were first and I just ignored them, first year in college atm and I had one girl actually come to my apartment and want to have sex but I somehow didnt, its just like in the moment I had something on the back of my head saying you are not worth it and she doesnt want shit, but as soon as she left I felt what kind of chance I had just lost.

Just thinking about this makes me feel like shit, I improved my style, looks and more thanks to the 1 year or TRP reading only (0 practice do to being a pussy) and I get a lot of iOi's from random girls I pass, I can chat anyone in my course but when the "oh wait, you are not only chatting maybe you can escalate here" though comes to my mind I start feeling nervous and cant continue it and dont escalate thinking im not worth it. Im really feeling down and just needed to vent here a bit, if anyone has any opinions im open to them.