UPDATE 2: Thanks for all the comments. I realised today that this back and forth has been damaging my mind and probably made me lose a plate today (I was so distressed about her recent texts and calls I couldn't get it up). I've blocked her on phone, email, fb, linkedin, skype, everything possible not to have any more contact. I am finally free! It hurts like hell but it's the only way forward.

UPDATE: realised I made a big mistake - sex was NOT plenty, was happening once a week and was almost a chore to her. But I made sure she came every single fucking time, and I have a good body with abs and all that shit.

I woke up from my beta status a few months ago, when my fairytale engagement was brutally destroyed. I found out my fiancee had been cheating on me for a few months, and when confronted she lied, tried to pin down the blame on me, said she was unsure if she really loved me else she wouldn't have done this... bla bla.

The past few months we've been on and off, cut off communications then got back, etc, all because she wants to get back but I just cannot trust her. She admitted to me she cheated because she was bored.

I can see clearly why she was bored even though she didn't tell me why. Sex was good and plenty, I had a high income that allowed us to have great holidays, a good home, I'm a reasonably "nice" and good looking guy, spent lots of time with her, so I was the perfect provider. Hence why the boredness set in according to RP theories.

I feel like I've partly woken up from my beta status, as I'm now fucking 2 women and try to get at least a new one every month. But despite all this, I still miss that woman. She's been trying to contact me, and on the latest interaction we had I told her I didn't want to speak to her for 6 months and then we will see how it goes. But I'm burning inside to call or text her.

Now here is the tricky part. I'm in my thirties, and this sounds womanly, but I really want to have kids, and I do feel like this woman would be a good mother. So a few questions for all you alphas and/or former betas:

  • how is the kids thing compatible with RP living?
  • any opinions on how to handle this woman?