My ex from senior year in highschool (both finished first year college now) started messaging me again now were in the same area and expressed interest in seeing me but it reminded me of high school and seeing these forums actually makes me feel ashamed of my betaness. We broke it off on pretty good terms cause we were just leaving for college but she hooked up with guys immediately after we were done (talking like a few days after) so I completely ignored her when she'd check on me or asked to meet up and pretty much moved on.

Looking back now as I haven't really thought about it before, it seems like I was a 75% beta. I'd pretend to compromise on stuff like not smoking as much weed and not training as much but I never actually did, I was all talk when it came to that. When she'd get mad, I'd get pissed at how petty it was but usually I couldn't be bothered to address why so I would just apologize or something. One time she said on our senior trip that "I could be hooking up with other guys you know" so I told her ok go ahead and left. She ended up crying all day and texted me immediately the next day but other than that and ditching her on prom night for a fight I'd been begging my coach for (was my mma amatuer debut), I was a complete bitch.

So my question is how much of a beta was I? I haven't been in an exclusive relationship since and haven't had problems with women in college mainly cause i'm pretty indifferent when it comes to people I don't actually like.