There's this girl I'm seeing and planning on turning into a plate. She's quite young and inexperienced, but she is very into me. Last time I fucked up at her ASD and couldn't plow through the LMR, but our texts have been kind of sexual and today we have a date and I plan on taking her to a hotel right after.

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I know I'm feeling and acting needy, but I also know things are a process and getting rid of this is part of me swallowing the pill. I want to change it and that's the reason I'm on this sub after all. I never show her any neediness and she said she loves how confident I am and how well I flirt.

She's dropping hints she wants a LTR and so far seems like a good candidate (smart, funny, beautiful, feminine, doesn't drink, wants to cook for me, says she's not a party girl etc), but she has no chance of getting this prize unless she works really hard for it. The vetting process would take several months and, like I learned, it would be necessary for the green flags to be greater than the red ones.

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Instagram stories are not shared on whatsapp, so if you see someone's story on whatsapp, that's because they actively wanted to show people on their contact list what they were doing. The thing is, she never posts anything to whatsapp stories. Yesterday, however, she posted a story at a college party with a friend. She told me she doesn't drink and don't like parties, but well, she was at one. Also at friday, she posted a story on whatsapp with her sister and a couple friends.

Could it be that she did it so I knew what she was doing? It looks like something she could do to generate jealousy in me, like, if you don't "LTR" me I'll just find someone else at a party like this.

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Like I said, this behaviour is realy fucking needy. I should act as if she doesn't exist when she's not around and not give a fuck to what she do, but I'm still going the process of learning of how to not give a fuck. I would never mention this to her and of course not change my demeanor around her because of it.

I think I'll try to bed her today. If she doesn't want it, I'll just soft next her. It's becoming too much work.