I was well on my way to becoming a RP man without knowing it before hand simply through shitty life experiences. Once I actually found TRP it was a boost that got me going on the right path even faster. For the past six months since I swallowed the pill my life has tremendously gotten better.

I've packed on muscle mass than I ever have, I've been reading more, I've been more confident, I make sure I do well in classes, I partake in nofap, I walk with good posture, I make a presence wherever I go. I do everything I can to be more masculine because life is just 100x better when you can control it.

But recently I've been going through the shit. Something is wrong with my confidence and I'm having a hard time pinpointing it/dealing with it.

During normal day to day life, like going to class, work, the gym, whatever, my confidence is fine. I have no issue talking with people or even starting a little chit chat with a cute girl if the mood is right. But I was at a party last night and my game was completely fucked, I wouldn't say this usually happens.

I have zero plates, and my last lay was like 2 weeks ago with a HB5-6 so not great.

I found out I'm graduating next May yesterday, this is especially important to me because this wasn't something I believed I could achieve. This honestly should boost my confidence but my parents couldn't give less of a shit even though I had a panic attack about this in front of them while watching my older brother graduate. (pre-TRP)

No one gives a shit about me, not even my parents really. I could give plenty examples.

I've had only one LTR that I wouldn't even consider long term.

TRP says that the only person that truly cares about me is me but I'm having a real hard time keeping up with this idea. It's tiring.

Is this just me blaming others for my problems? Do I just inherently have no game? Am I having these problems because I'm the one who cares too much?

I've been told I'm attractive plenty of times too so trust me when I say it's not the problem.

I want to grab life by the balls, I want to spin plates, I want to be happy. I need some advice... Roast me askrtrp, tell me everything I'm doing wrong so I can fix it.

Context: 20 year old college student

Edit: I lift 5 days a week