I’m 18 out of HS and a virgin never had a kiss nor a girlfriend. The most I ever did was dance with girls at school dances and by dance I mean them grinding on me. At my old job a year ago there was this girl I liked and she was into me we talked and I knew I could hook up with her but I let the opportunity pass. The reason being is about almost 2 years ago one day I woke up went to the bathroom to take a piss and I noticed something about my dick. I’m Indian and uncircumcised and I noticed on the top of my foreskin there was this whiteness. At first I thought it was some type of infection. A few days later I went to the doctor and this young female doctor looked at it and said it was infected and gave me this cream and told me to apply it and I should be good. It didn’t work so when I went to the doctor again a male doctor told me that She was wrong because it’s not infected and that it’s vitiligo. I went to a dermatologist and unfortunately he said it is vitiligo and that this may go away or not and what’s ever worse is that there is no cure. This has stopped me from talking to girls and going to porn. I am not addicted to porn anymore and am doing Semen retention it has improved my life and I’m improving in other areas in my life as well. I just don’t know what to do about this. I don’t want to be monogamous after finding TRP and I want to spin plates but I’m worried a girl will see my dick and be turned off. What now?