Hey man,

I come here to ask for help.

A few months ago I ended the worst relationship I ever had. You know, I was the typical beta buck. It was really awful to the point where I thought about commiting suicide (don't worry I feel much, much better now!).

I then discovered TRP and began to read. But I quit reading halfway to the sidebar. Everytime I read anything on this subb, it hurt because I relate it to my former relationship.

The more I read on TRP about girls lying, cheating, not being trustworthy, not being able to love unconditionnaly, the more it makes me feel sick about them and the more they disgust me. And I relate that to my last relationship and said to myself "okay, so she cheated on me this time". "Okay, she really disrespected me". And it makes it more difficult for me to get over her.

I think I'm fighting the pill, forcing myself to come back to old blue pill beliefs.

What do you think?