i was a perfect beta all my life. pedestalised a girl for one and half year who was on CC all along. never fucked her (so she fucked me up). she used me as a perfect doormat for all her emotional problems. she even told me how much she liked to vent off with me. i was too stupid to see where i stand in relation to myself and women. one day she tells me she made out with a guy ( who didn't care for her much) . my world shattered and i expressed my feelings and she showed me where i stood all along. i looked down and realised my ground was a deep friendzone. escape from her and existing social circle. intro to red pill through a friend in this june. baby steps to reform self. random approaches. all going fine. very small successes and lots of power and happiness. but but she shows up everywhere and tries to sweet talk. once i wanted to game her for a change and feel better about myself (mild dying oneitis) but she postpones the date two times for silly reasons. i never brought up that thing again and didn't respond to her explanations. she waits for few weeks and calls me with old sweet names. she is still fucking that guy. why does she even need me now? just to orbit her again? can't she see that i don't care anymore and don't even reciprocate her sweet talk? what does she fuckin want?