I took the pill, last year, since then i stopped gaming, gained some muscles, threw my childish clothes, get haircut every month, cut down on weed, alcohol, read 23 books in a year(non fiction).

Im still ugly, women still treat me the same, cant get respect from other men, i became cynical and nihilistic, i give zero fucks, most days free time i spend alone walking in nature or sitting in park listening music and sleeping on grass, i dont want to approach women and give them attention because it never worked.

I see "blackpills" everywhere, my hot friend is allowed to do or say anything, women find it attractive, on other hand im weighted down by all these social rules. My unattractive friend is ridiculed by girls when he tries to flirt, he is not saying weird cringey shit.

Attractive girls will talk to me and laugh at my jokes but the moment i show any interest they become defensive.

I think im not depressed( i know im cynical but its just fun to me), i love life and will wake up happy, my day is filled with enjoying activities, working out, nature, reading, hobbies, friends, cooking.

Fat, ugly or visibly mentally ill women will give me flirty signs but il rather remain sexless then to admit thats my "league".