Hi guys, two years ago I decided to fix myself. I used to smoke and drink daily, no motivation to study and work, 0 experience with girls, and I was a fat 22 years old boy.

But I also had foundations, I was studying in the best university of my country. Now I graduated, regularly lift, quit smoking and drinking. I even got a sixpack.

In last two years, I also practiced with girls. I even got a gf, but lost her due to my insecurities. I don't have any game but had fair amount of dates, so I can say that my appearance is not the problem. The problem is when I go to a date with a girl, I always ask about her past. Even if a girl is a virgin, if she has done any sexual thing it makes me jealous. I get jealous of the other guys from her past. I also make a girl oneitis very easily.

I feel like I am an incel who improves himself. How can I fix this mentality ? I know that it's very stupid and harmful for myself but I just can't change it. With these insecurities gaming etc does not make sense because I know that after short amount of time she will see the incel and break things up.