I've been a bit of a pussy lately. I've been telling myself to "trust your gut" and so I have... but only 90% of the time. Is my oneitus blinding me? Am I the crazy one here? Or am I justified?

Background.

Known the girl for two years. Lets call her 'H'. Had no intention of being together. When H and I first met, I took her out twice and didnt get laid. That stuck with me. She had respect for herself and I liked that. BUT, at the time I wanted easy lays. Que me talking to her when I was lonely or horny..

Fast forward 6 months. I moved 2 hours away and H was still there (via phone.) She kept pushing to hangout but I was busy with the new job. We finally set a day to hangout and the day of I called and said the date was off. I had another girl with mad head game in the new city. It made since at the time. So I ghosted H for the next 8-10 months on all social media and phone.

Sometime in October of last year I went back to my home town (where we're both from) and got blackout drunk. I messaged H. I had just broke up with my LTR for liking and following to many dudes on social media (I was blind cuz that girl could suck a golfball through a bendy straw) and waited too long.. but my gut was right. She was talking to and prolly fucking those dudes she was adding on social media.

After the blackout texts H and I decide to hang out. We hit it off and after 4ish mos of hanging out and fucking she asks for my commitment and I give it.

Que my gut.

Not a huge social media whore like my ex, but still questionable things going on. Questionable snaps. I play it off like we good but honestly I want things to be different this time. So eventually I confront her. If she wants to 'shop around' that's cool but don't be upset if I do the same.. I was wrong on what made me suspicious and I admitted to it.

Recently I noticed new dudes liking her Insta shit and FB stuff.. I rarely use fb but after the last ex I have trust issues. I'm glad I looked. I notice someone recently added who liked all her shit and vice versa. This was her response.. now my gut tells me she's overexplaining because she's a liar. Tell me I'm wrong.

https://imgur.com/a/BpKsHJs

Tell me I'm wrong.

  • we spoke on the phone after this text convo and overall I'd say I left feeling better than when I first answered but I'm still hesitant. 3 days ago I told her to bring all of her black thongs cuz I wanna see her in them all. She did. She does what I want when I want but this one thing is making me uneasy.

I want some vets who have experience with ltrs to lmk if this is sketchy or if I'm crazy. Advice on how to deal with relationships in general would be nice to .