I have an ex that moved away due to family/work. She was the closest thing to a unicorn that I have had in my dating career and I developed a bit on oneitus and went a bit beta when we broke it off. Since then I discovered TRP. We have maintained an ongoing friends relationship and I expect to visit with her when I hit Vegas next year with a guy friend for our annual getaway. Before TRP I didn't question our long conversations or occasional exchanges of gifts, stuff like that. This past couple of weeks I have been doing better with her on maintaining Radio Silence and projecting Abundance. She has made it a point to call and or text me nearly every day. I have managed to keep frame and generally keep my responses brief although on the phone yesterday we did talk about 45 minutes. I was pretty proud that I didn't delve into old times or anything and kept it strictly current events and about the good times I was having with some of my plates which aroused her interest.

Tonight however, she was texting me asking what I wanted for a Christmas present. I told her nothing as I had not purchased anything for her but she insisted she would get me something so I suggested a book. Where I am questioning myself is after that text conversation I went online and bought her a board game after telling her earlier that I wasn't getting her anything. And further, I had to text back asking for some address details for shipping. I'm not sure this is a big deal as we have exchanged gifts before, but what bugs me is second guessing myself on whether I did mess up or not. At what point do you just become so confident you are living the principles that you no longer question yourself like that?