I’m a 20 YO Electrical Engineering student working 65 hrs a week in a Summer internship.

I am a virgin.

Grew up in the boondocks of BFE New Mexico and never had the drive, the will, or the prospects to get laid. Homeschooled through middle school, I was a huge loser in High school because getting a 3.9 GPA, full ride scholarship to Uni, and graduating with my AAS before Highschool never impressed girls. I currently live in a mining town with my parents where men outnumber women 2-1. The couple times I DID have a girl wanting to fuck me I blew it.

After Highschool I shredded up and am going into the Marines as an Officer. I start PLC next summer, assuming I pass my physical in August. This requires I run and lift every day after a 10-12hr shift working a Survey Operation in a copper pit. On top of this I do Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu 3 times a week.

I’ve saved $7,000 this summer over 2 months. All of it for my own use in whatever.

By all means I’m not ugly. Im not awkward. Im not a weirdo who doesn’t drink or party. I dress nicely and have a solid friend group of Alphas. I’m interesting in conversations.

But I’m still a Virgin, and I’m tired of it. I’ve exhausted myself so much. I had this notion in my head that if I worked hard enough and became the toughest, smartest, funniest mother fucker around I’d get girls. But I don’t, and I don’t think I will either when I attend Arizona State University this fall. Im living a hard life being frustrated continuously because I understand I’ll never be an alpha because I don’t get laid. I’m too smart. Too self conscious. I get too angry too easily. And I’m tired of bottling it up inside.