I am a smart man by any method of measure, but my short comings are equally great. I have ADD, and until about a month ago I had embarrassing social skills. when I as 14 I remember being self aware for the first time, before that I was a learning machine without the ability to look inside. Leaving high school I stopped my meds, I haven't been aware that I was isolated socially until I was back on my meds.

I have been laid, partied harder than most, been in long relationships, but at no point have I ever felt myself in a sustaining manner. I was in the movie Click, fast forwarding on autopilot, but I wasn't even aware of it because of the fact. Work forced me to get back on meds, it took 2 months to get the dose right but now I am alive again. As odd as that sounds there is no better way to put it.

I am not a social god(yet) but now I am aware that sitting in my apt reading does less for me than talking to strangers. It may not work for anyone, but for me, I have been lost for 10 years, and now I am here to live life with any and everyone.

If you ever had it and quit taking meds for any reason ( I was embarrassed) reconsider it. Fixing a chemical imbalance will better your life!!!!