Just something I need to write down right now.

Every time I push myself one step further, there will be pain.

The first time I approached, the first time I went in for the kiss. The first time I asked someone out. The first time I got a third date ...

I have to expect something to not work out how I would want it to.

I cannot rely on other people for my happiness. After all, it's about 1) finding those that I may be interested in among those that are interested in me, 2) learning to communicate properly what my needs are, putting down clear and distinct boundaries and 3) becoming more and more resilient to pain by repeated exposure to it.

Becoming more and more stoic. Closer and closer to the ideal I want to become, the one I chose for myself.

Basically, I can expect this new girl to lose interest in me on or before this third date