It still feels unreal.

The night started out with me going to a local pub where I was going to meet with a group of people I didn't know from a facebook event; I started talking to them and I drank some as well, I suppose being intoxicated made things easier on my part. I also met someone I would have never thought I was going to speak to again, and some other acquaintances of mine.

We were heading to some concert in a venue I had never been to, we get there and I am still getting to know some of the people from this group (there weren't more than 10 of us), at the venue I try talking to a few girls I find attractive, as well as strangers. I think building social momentum has been a decisive factor.

I got rejected in one way or another at least 3 times before I started talking with this girl. And even though I know I messed up, all I was really doing was conveying my interest for her as directly and unashamedly as possible.

Basically, what happened was I started talking to her and engaging her physically, and although she did not return my physicality (which never went over a certain limit anyway) she did comply with it. She let me shower her with my interest, she let me caress her neck, grab her face with my hands, pull her in close to me and ... not 2 minutes before meeting her, we started making out. Rather, I took initiative and kissed her.

It was one of the most wonderful and awkward experiences of my life. I could feel our teeth clashing together.

The few rejections I had to face tonight, and, more importantly the several months of effort I poured into myself, were worth it.

Everything had been worth it. That, still feels very much unreal, moment when I started kissing her. That was so raw and passionate; kissing her neck, stroking her hair ...

It was all worth that brief span of time. I think things will never be the same again for me.

Granted, I am sort of an hard rock kind of person, I have long hair, and I do believe I am somewhat attractive. Despite my lack of success with the other sex for pretty much my whole existence so far, I think starting to count my calories and really making an effort to shred off a few more kilograms (I'm not fat by any stretch of the word, although I only recently started pursuing primarily aesthetic results through physical activity), really helped, if with nothing else, with my confidence. What I am saying is, the venue, uncommon as it was, was probably a big help for the kind of person that I am.

Things got kind of complicated from here, my phone was completely out and so she told me to write down my number on her phone. I did as she asked, then she said she felt bad cause she was ignoring her friends so I told her that I understand and I took it as a sign that she wanted me to leave.

A few minutes later I start talking to another girl I had met in the same venue just a little earlier who mentions that my "friend" was looking for me. She wanted to tell her friends that she was going to be busy with me for a while and expected me to wait for her to come back. Last time I saw her, she was leaving the venue with her girl friend.

She does have my phone number but I doubt I will ever see her again. But I will never forget the incredible feeling of being so forwardly sexual with her and finding her receptive. The last, small kiss we shared will probably be one of the most memorable experiences of my life. It does feel bittersweet to have finally tasted someone else's saliva (as rough as it sounds I just cannot think of a better way to put it) only to misinterpret her and see her leaving forever, I think this marks a turning point in my life. And the realization that if I hadn't put myself out there, if I had not had the balls to face those rejections and the balls to very simply go after what I want unashamedly tonight's events would never have come to pass and I would have spent the night on the internet again.

After all the time I spent reading seduction material the thing that won that girl over was just me acting upon my intentions and becoming physical really quickly (which is something I was doing with pretty much everybody in that place anyway).

TL;DR I had my first kiss tonight, it was literally incredible