I have CPTSD from being in Utahs teen industry and I constantly face those demons and shit. I’m 19M and I registered in Junior College for nursing school but I’m very extroverted nonetheless but when it comes to escalation there has been very few instances that resulted in success. I tend to come off as real and genuine but this often leads to me being viewed as someone friendly and not in a sexual way. I get scared to be rejected not for the conscious feeling but more facing the demons at night telling me that I’m an ugly retard who doesn’t deserve love. Not gonna lie these feel intrusive and I wanna get back in the saddle because I believe it’s the only way to stop my trauma monster from tearing me into shreds. I wanna stay sober and off the ice 🧊 and thankfully I’m clean and working in the meantime too. I just want to close this book once and for all. Can anyone give me tips for escalation over text and in person cause the approach is natural for me but coming off with intentions is a struggle ATM.