I'm 23. Never even kissed a girl before. I've been told I'm good looking by 2 girls both of which I liked and crushed on. I have no fucking clue in hell how to escalate or be desirable to a woman. I watched the first 3 Blueprints and am 26:40 in Foundations (told to start there instead) and as Owen is naming the failures...I'm a check on every single one. I'm addicted to porn have been since 13 (multiple times a day never changed). Feel like my sexual energy is completely out of wack and no way in hell it's fixable. I'm pathetically self deprecating to the point it pisses, scares off, depresses other people let alone women. I've also been using Cannabis since 13 every single day (I'm a medical patient now, and multiple neurologists and therapists all agree I have Generalized Anxiety Disorder). I've cried myself to sleep over this girl who the more I talk to, the more I feel she's manipulating me. I'm short, hairy like a gorilla (everywhere) to the point that shaving would take too long. I have bad teeth from too much candy and throwing up from ocular migraines as a child. Despite my shortcomings I'm definately sexy or desirable to women but I can never tell. The only times I remember feeling even remotely socially adequate with people is when I'm showing them magic/playing guitar (I love sharing my talents). The thought of doing anything remotely sexual with a woman turns me on but terrifies me so much even thinking about it I shake and feel like I'm having a panic attack. All this aside...I'm sticking to this. I'm willing to try anything. Just...Need a break to collect my thoughts because I feel like worse than a choad right now... What's worse than a Choad.