So quick intro; I got into game a year ago. I've had fuck ton of reference experiences. I trained myself to become better at this aspect of my life. I was the center of my social circle. I got no problem during cold approach (except AA, but I still plow through it) I transformed myself and I became a better version of myself. Girls like me. I am a skinny dude with a high pitched voice, but I embraced it. I was so comfortable in my skin. I've had this very sexual sense of humor and I get away with it all the time. The girls just dig my fun vibe. I was really a beta male back then, but I changed that. Little by little I trained myself to become an Alpha Male... but here I am now. Feeling shitty.

There was this very special girl on my social circle. She was my best friend (That's what I thought of her at that time) She wasn't really that stunning or gorgeous compared to the other girls that were into me. She's probably between 7 and an 8. The thing that I really like about her- is her personality. We just click. Anyway, we hang out a lot. We opened up with each other. We could literally talk about anything under the sun for hours. Back then, I really didn't put her on a pedestal. That's why my game looked smooth. As I said I had this fun sexual vibe. That was me naturally and that's what I showed her. To me it was nothing, it's just me offering good vibes or offering value. It was a constant seduction, sometimes I kiss her, my escalations make her feel wet. It came to the point where we almost fucked. She was the only girl who came to that point that I haven't fucked. Months go by, I started seeing her differently. I've had this problem one day and I talked to her for advice. She was sincere. I could tell she was really into me. Drama after drama after drama. I stirred that shit up. She was fuckin into it. At that time that was my only purpose to see where it'll go. But what I didn't know that it would be the cause for me to fall in love with her. She just fucking touched my soul. Every inch of it. I fucking felt that shit. I didn't realize that using some game techniques for the sake of reference experience would backfire. I just fucking fell in love so hard. I could tell that she was too. In fact, the idea of "US" was already planted in her mind to the point that she brings it up while we talk. She was ready. Until the biggest problem in my social circle hit me. I was literally not cool with my friends at that time and she was the only one who could help me. I stirred the drama too far. She got really fucking pissed. LITERALLY. The next days was her making me jealous. Not talking to me the way she used to before. She does the things to other guys that she only does to me. I'll admit I was simultaneously dealing with shit and I was scarce. I attempted another move that came off as needy and seeking attention. I crossed the line once again. She fucking blocked me on all my social media. And it was all radio silence. Months later it came to past. Now we're just friends. She's in my social circle. She's my classmate. So I see her everyday. We went on vacation so I had the time to forget everything about her. During that time I was regaining myself. I did cold approaches. Did dates and stuff. Tbh no one really surpassed her. Im in the first week of school... we're cool and all. But deep inside it still hurts me. I fucked it up. Now that she's still in my proximity. I don't know how this is gonna last. Im trying to do everything. Finding other girls that I connect with... still no one. help. how would i fix this.