I had been watching porn and jacking off a lot for two days and was still feeling shit after a rejection a little over a week ago so wasn't sure I could do an approach but I decided to try anyway. Took the train downtown, bought myself a can of beer and a sandwich and walked over to a place by the water where I hung out almost every day last summer vacation. I sat down on a bench to drink the beer and eat the sandwich. A woman sitting on a bench nearby got up and left after like one minute, which irritates me. I saw one tourist taking photos but I had to pee and when I got back from where I peed she was gone. I walked around and saw another tourist. I didn't know what to say so I was hesitating like fuck to approach her. I stalked her for a long time and she probably saw it. I sat down on a bench. She sat down on a bench nearby facing my bench but not directly, I think she sat down there after I sat down.

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After a little while I got up and started walking towards her, was planning to sit on the other side of the table that was beside her bench. But almost immediately when I got up and started walking towards her she got up and started walking. Don't know if she wanted to get away from me or what, but why did she sit so close to me then? Soon after she's standing at a crosswalk waiting for the red light to turn green. I walked up there too, then looked at her and said "it's ok, there are no cars, you can go". She looked at me and smiled, then crossed the street. She immediately turned onto an island in the middle of the street where there's a bus stop or tram stop, again don't know if she was trying to get away from me. I crossed the street fully and waited there, keeping an eye on her.

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She didn't take a bus or tram or whatever stops there, but she was looking at the time table, don't know if she was doing that for show or what but she walked away over to my side of the street. I kept hesitating but was feeling I would approach and say something, maybe ask if she was a photographer, a suggestion I got on another forum. However I was using my phone a little and when I put my phone down I couldn't find her anymore, which made me angry. But I thought whatever there are other fish in the sea, I learned a lesson, to not hesitate, and I did at least "walk over and utter a sound" as they said in a youtube video, they said that's a good place to start, I think it was something because I haven't made many approaches this year.

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After walking around for a while looking for her I tried to forget about her. I think it was about the same time I decided to look for another target. Found a much uglier woman walking around, probably a tourist. I thought it's just good that she's uglier because I might have less approach anxiety and perhaps my chances of success will be higher. However I had pretty much the same level of approach anxiety and ended up stalking her for a long time too and lost her too just where a hostel is located so I think she walked in there even though I didn't see that because I was having a pee again.

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Oh well at least I "uttered a sound" and I learned that I must not hesitate, even though I pretty much knew that already but this reinforces that idea.

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Would appreciate feedback.