So there is this very cute chick who works at my organisation. She sits right in front of my bay. I caught her at cafeteria today and this happened:

Me: “ Hi”

Her: “ Hi”

Me: “ I believe we haven’t met”.

Her: Puzzled Look

Me: “ You sit right in front of my bay. The ‘insert any department’ bay.”

Me:” Hi I am ‘insert any name’.

Her: “ Hi I am ‘insert any name’.

Her: “ Yes yes. A lot of people have joined your team, right?”

Me: “ Yes, I believe so. Like a lot of those people are interns, but along with me ,one more person would be joining as full time.” ( I have no clue why that shitty demeaning judgmental qualifying behavior came out of my mouth. I stabbed myself with a fork, just after that)

Her: “Right. Anyways I am from this ‘insert any department’.”

Me:” Oh this ‘different department from what she said.’ team?

Her:” No no. My team is different. I do this, not that.”

Me: “ Yeah you wouldn’t seem like you could do that.”

Her: Nervous laughter.

Me: "Ok Bye. See you around."

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I believe there is no coming from that.

Lesson: I am doing a lot of approaches these days, but by far this was my worst. The anxiety and nervousness killed me. I am still stabbing myself with a fork. I don't know where a knife lies.