FR 12/10/15

Sup Reddit. My names Pat. 20 years old. Been doing pickup for 2 1/2 years now since I was 18.

This is my first post but I have a big ass thread on rsd that I started like a year and a half ago. Check it out. http://www.rsdnation.com/node/520633

Mall.

Stayed there for like an hour and a half before class.

First set was blonde two set. Open. Blowout.

Second girl was this super hot brown girl. Open. We're sitting and chatting. I'm talking to her how I like meditation. She just goes with it but I don't think she gave a fuck. Get logistics. She works and has to go back in 5. Try to go for number. Nothing.

Third girl was FOB Korean. We're chatting. I ask her what her hobbies are and she just says "I'm busy" so I proceed to tell her how I like running, meditation, and drawing. Try to bounce to Starbucks, no go. Keep chatting, she's very quiet and reserved. "I have to go" Get the number. Prob a flake. Plus she's leaving tomorrow to go back to Korea for a month. Damn those FOBs love traveling. I need to start traveling. Every FOB girl I meet should mentor me on how to travel the world and give really heavy LMR.

Then I pussy out like twice so I make up for it for doing another two set.

Open two set. "Nice to meet you" Fuck.

Then I see a girl look at me while I'm going up the elevator. She was on the phone. Gets off. Talks to me. I talk to her about my favorite hobbies. I try to get physical. Nope. Number? Nope.

Approach another girl. She seems kind of hooked but then she told me she got a bf.

Was kind of frustrated not going to lie.

I think it's so weird how a couple months ago I had a streak of like 5 months where I was just fucking killing it. And it's like I try to do the same shit but nothing clicks. And I feel like I'm just "doing everything wrong" but I'm doing the same shot I was doing.

I'm starting to feel like pickup is just a journey with ups and downs. Like it has nothing to do with what your doing right or wrong, as long as you keep taking action. Like to go through the ups your always going to have to go through those downs. Like an endless cycle or something. Like I feel like the reason I'm not getting success has nothing to do with "how I'm opening" or "how physical I am" Feel like it's just some natural low part of the journey that will be followed by a high.

Also, really gotta get back on NoFap. The two benefits I noticed the most from doing my last 60 day nofap challenge is 1) having control over your sexual desires and not needing women for sex 2) having a lot of conviction,fire,and 100% commitment when you escalate and lead

The second one you can sometimes solve by just building a shit ton of momentum.

But yea when I jack off and I see hot chicks I just get this strong "need" feeling and it's just so fucking shitty.

Yup.

Also, I have a new goal. The inspiration for this goal was inspired by my wings. The goal is to lose my virginity before the end of 2015. 3 fucking weeks.

I've approached thousands of girls.

Probably got like 60 make outs so far.

800 numbers(approx).

Probably over 100 instant dates in 4 months.

Almost pulled probably like 15-20 times ever since the start of the summer.

Pulled 4 girls.

Got a BJ.

Still a virgin though.

I actually took a backseat from goal setting. I used to be into it and I started doing it for pickup. It was going great. But then I got in a car accident. I couldn't take that action anymore since I didn't have a car, so it's like all those goals went out the window and I just felt so discouraged. It's like there are always external circumstances that can come and fuck up your plans, and your just left with all these mismanaged expectations that make you feel so confused.

So I learned that setting goals is a risk, because you really put yourself out there, and you make yourself vulnerable not only in the failure of the thing you want to achieve, but random circumstances that could just fuck everything up in an instant. But it's worth it. I'm willing to risk that in order to gain success and overcome the mental hurdle of losing my virginity.

Meditation: Did it in the sunlight. It was warm so I took my shirt off.

Exercise: Ran. Getting there.

Walking meditation: Did it.

Artistic Skill: Doing it after I wrote this

Nofap day 3: check