I went out last night with two goals in mind. Firstly, I didn't want to get drunk. Secondly, I wanted to make out with a girl. I know in general that I shouldn't make that kind of goal, but I've been doing /r/nofap for ten days, so I'm horny as hell. I was in the mood for action.

I started by going out to Seoul by myself to just walk around and find cool stuff. I got bored with that after a couple hours and headed to the party area, but it was going to be about three hours before anyone I knew would show up. As luck would have it, I ran into a HB7 I met a couple times before, hereafter HB Hippie, and we struck up a conversation. She was meeting two guy friends and none of them knew any good places to go, so I took the lead and suggested different places to eat and drink. Had the guys not been there, I would've called it an insta-date, but I was happy enough with it as it was. The guys were chill and though I'd met HB Hippie before, I never really had more than a very brief bar conversation with her. She's pretty chill, and hopefully I'll get to see her more often.

Around 9:30 PM my friends show up, so we split off to go bar hopping and see some music. We went to the first bar to catch our friends' band. As soon as I walked in, some HB 9, HB Blonde, gave me a huge smile, then a confused look. She mistook me for someone else. I went over and said "So, who am I?" Her response "Well my boyfriend has a friend that looks just like you." I'm aware often a boyfriend is often a shit test, but it felt genuine at this point, so I just used some light kino and joked around about how she was just playing me to get me to buy raffle tickets to get in the approaching mood.

Stood around enjoying the band, then spotted an HB 8, HB Pearls, that I'd also met before on a couple occasions. I went up immediately and started kino, dancing, and she introduced me to her friends, one extremely drunk girl and the fat baby sitter. After the band finished, I told them I was bouncing to another bar to see another good band and invited them, so we got ready to leave and I motivated my group of friends to leave with me. Unfortunately, HB Pearls and her friends had to wait for someone, but I didn't want to miss the show, so I gave them directions and we went ahead.

At the second bar, I ran into HB8, HB Irish, that I met about a year ago. The very first time we met, she offered me a BJ, but I declined (AFC level: MAXIMUM) and since then there's been a lot of sexual tension between us, but until recently she had a boyfriend, so nothing happened. HB Irish was pretty drunk and all over me when she saw me. We danced a bit to a Korean rockabilly band, but that was pretty much it. We stayed for a second band, but I was getting a bit tired of the scene, so I asked if she wanted to leave. She chose to stay, but we made plans to meet up next Saturday and go to a reggae/dubstep club.

Go to a third bar, but almost immediately, I get a text from an HB7, HB OKC, saying she's at X club and that I should come, so I decide to bounce. All my friends but one girl stay, so it's just the two of us. We get to the club, and immediately she says something about an ex-boyfriend. I didn't hear her very well. A bit later, I see HB OKC grinding on some guy and kissing him, which to be honest, bothered me a bit and brought me down. She would occasionally come over to me and dance rather politely with me, but then go back to the other guy. I figured she was just using me to make him jealous, which I didn't like, so I began ignoring her. She'd approach me and I'd just turn away to dance with my wing. My wing wanted to bounce after awhile, so I was more than ready, and we went to my favorite place. I wish we had gone there sooner.

The last bar always has great live DJs playing original music, rather than the standard club fare, so it's a great place to go for dancing and a unique feel. Unfortunately, last night it as a huge sausage fest, but by this point it was like 3:30 AM and I had all but given up on anything substantial happening, so I was content to just dance for awhile. I ran into HB Blonde whose boyfriend was the DJ at the bar, and she said she pointed me out to him and he agreed I did look exactly like someone they know. Also ran into HB Pearls briefly, but she was on her way out. She invited me along, but I didn't really want to leave considering how late it was.

I tried approaching a HB 9 Korean, but she had a huge bitch shield up. I made a joke about how she looked really bored as she was dancing. Either she didn't hear/understand or was not at all fucking interested. Shrugged it off and kept dancing. See another HB8 standing near the dance floor looking bored. She had been hovering around a conversation I had with some Irish guy a couple minutes before, so I just leaned over and said I didn't catch her name before. She introduced herself, and I said "Well, HB8, you look really bored," which was received much better than with the Korean girl.

We talked a bit about how she doesn't normally go out to clubs because it's not her style. We talked about books and the terrible sweater some guy was wearing. Good kino the whole time, arm around the waist, brushing her face when I lean in to talk to her ear, etc... Still got some mixed signals from her. She seemed very reserved and shy, but I just figured because she's not really a "club" person she just might be a bit uncomfortable. I'd pause our conversation to get into a groove dancing, and I'd catch her looking at me and she'd smile, so I took it for a good sign. Went back and forth with little comments and periods of dancing.

Suddenly, she puts on her coat and prepares to leave, only instead of just leaving, she just stands near the door and gives me alternating smiles and sad puppy dog eyes. I held her eye contact and smiled from a distance, but I could sense she wasn't going to bite, so I went to her.

Me: Leaving already?

Her: Yeah, I probably should...

Me: Well what are you doing next weekend?

Her: I don't know...

Me: Let's hang out.

Her: ... I'm engaged...

At that point, I pulled back. She stumbled into me because she was drunk and ended up just laying her head on my shoulder.

Her: He asked me yesterday...

Me: That's good, right?

Her: Yeah...

I was getting weird vibes off the girl. In just about any other situation, I felt like it would've been a done deal. She's got her face an inch way from mine, but her eyes are looking down. I felt like all I had to do was lift up her chin and we would've been making out, but I sensed a lot of conflict on her side. Obviously, she wouldn't be out at a club alone the day after getting engaged if she was super happy with the whole situation, but she was also pretty drunk and I didn't want to take advantage of the situation. Say what you will about alcohol and inhibitions and a person's true desires, but I've had a great many regrets that all stemmed from the fact that I was drunk when I made the decision, and I didn't want to get involved in that kind of situation with her. She left and I decided to go to sleep it off, since it was about 5 AM at this point.

I succeeded and not getting drunk, but didn't get that make-out I was so keen on making happen. I noticed throughout the night that I was really good at approaching the girls that I'd met before, even if it was just a girl I locked eyes with or had a short bathroom line conversation with that night. However, when it came to approaching strangers, I had a hard time getting into the spirit. Going out and not getting drunk and gaming is a mixed bag for me. I'm glad I didn't spend a lot of money or get too drunk (I've had several drunk K-closes that should've gone further, if not for certain "issues" due to being too drunk), but it also made me feel a bit alienated from the rest of the crowd.