PREFACE

Me and Target met each other 5 years ago through mutual friends or some shit, maybe I added her on Facebook, shit I don't even know. We had a mutual interest in Anime and gaming (I was kind of a loner back then).

We started talking rather often, although I was pretty cringeworthy back then.

Two years ago, I started working on myself. I didn't really go for Target since I was working on a bunch of other girls now, but we talked about getting to see each other sometime soon.

Well, it must've been like two weeks ago or something that I hit her up on Facebook after not having talked to her for a while and said: "Hey, we should meet up sometime soon. Are you available next Friday?" to which she said yes.

BEFORE THE WEEKEND

From then on we talked to each other on Skype. The last two days or so we videochatted. We pretty much just chit-chatted. Nothing special going on. Tried avoiding the former friendzone simply by believing that I wasn't in it ("When we get married...", "...What?! You can't name our kid Oliver without my permission" and things like: "O - em - gee, we gotta buy a big house and fill it with chocolate ice cream", bla bla bla). Pretty much just having fun with her.

FRIDAY

That day we were super excited. It was the first weekend during Christmas break in school.

I made sure I looked good, smelled good, etc. then got out on the porch to wait for her, bla bla, boring shit. She comes over, we hug, say "Hi" and just take a moment to come to terms with the fact that we're finally meeting each other.

We get downstairs, play video games for a while. Nothing really happens, I'm just focusing on having fun and kino is pretty natural to me so no problems.

Eventually, we eat. She doesn't eat much though. Turns out already at this point, she was so in love with me she couldn't eat.

I tell her to come with me so I can take my dog for a walk and show her the most beautiful view, so we go to the forrest and I show her the most beautiful view in my entire city. Very romantic, right?

We get back home and into my room. Again, kino is natural to me, so it's hard for me to say what I did but we probably playfighted for a short amount of time or something, perhaps we danced a bit, I don't know (I almost always have music on in the background) and then we just kind of stood there and the moment was perfect, so we go in for the kiss, and everything goes according to plan, of course.

So we kiss and we cuddle and we go to bed, eventually undressing each other and we have sex. However, she's super fucking tight so I can't even enter her without hurting her. Whatever, she came and we go back to sleep.

SATURDAY

Saturday we get up waaaay too late. Once again, it turns out she couldn't sleep the day before, because she was too in love and she still can't eat because of the same damn thing.

Well, today we look more like a fresh little couple, playing vidya and kissing, nothing too crazy.

Day becomes night as it usually does though, and it turns out we need condoms, so we head to the store. Kissing in public for the first time.

We get back home and have sex but she's still too tight.

I ask her if she wants to go take a shower with me to clean up. She's hesitant, but says yes. I can hear that she doesn't mean it though, so I tell her: "Hey, if you don't want to, just say no instead. At least don't lie to me." So she says no, because she's too tired, which is fine, and then we go to sleep.

SUNDAY

This is where things go baaaaad...

Even though she still couldn't sleep, because love was stronger than tiredness, we manage to sleep a few hours and wake up around noon. When she wakes up she is confused.

TL;DR

"I'm not sure I can do this," she says. It turns it she feels like she has never really started living before. It's her time to go out and make friends, party, live life, you know?

I tell her she can obviously do that with me. Blablabla.

But she doesn't believe in love and she doesn't want a boyfriend right now.

I'm currently thinking that I'm just going to go see her anyway and just kind of do what we want to do with each other without having to label it since that obviously scares her, but I don't know what to do.

So basically, I fucked my long-time internet friend, got monoitis and now it turns out she doesn't believe in love. Any input would be appreciated.