Alright so I approached today and went bad, like I feel like driving just driving until my car runs out of gas or I get pulled over or both and just not do anything. I'm not going to, but I feel like it.

I go up to a group of girls and theres this girl I liked for like 4 months but I never actually talked to her. Im like I'm do it and I do. I open with some shit about looking for my friend and they're all confused for like 2 seconds then.

I go and say I'm just kidding that I just wanted to talk to them, I'm bored and theres nothing to do so I decided to talk to them. I say some bs and ask if they have heard the new album. Man nobody said shit it was quiet for a solid 3 sec until somega girl says she hasnt but points at her friend.

There's like 4 girls one dude btw. I ask whether she liked it (the album) and she said it was good. But no one else is saying anything. Okay so I switch gears.

I'm like so what do you girls do during lunch (I think I might have added if they just sit there all lunch 2 of them say yeah we do. I'm say that I thought they did something different and that I expected more enthusiasm from them.

They didn't say anything. I guess my voice was quiter than regular according to my friend. Maybe that added to the bad reaction?

The guy came from somewhere else and asked if I was asking out this one girl (because I guess I talked to her more only because she was the only girl actually replying) I quitely responded that I was gonna propose to her just jokingly.

Then the girl I actually liked looked up at me and said Do I know you? Not like an actual question but more like what do you want, I responded that no she doesn't and the whole point of me doing this is so they can know me. Worst part was that her face wasn't what I thought it was. Like she was a 6 or a 7 and I had put her on a pedestal and thought she was like a 9. That shit dissapointed me so much.

Then I think I said out loud that this was dying and I couldmt save it and I kind of just walked out really disappointed said later and I was out.

So what can I fix so this doesn't happen again because this was terrible. I don't like feeling defeated and I feel really defeated. Like all that time of me wanting to do it and thinking about it, just so I can f it up.

Tomorrow I'm go and approach one of the cute girl in the group and just be like I know I bombed yesterday but I'm not really that socially retarded and ask for her number. This is the only way I feel will at least partially make up for my defeat.

So what should I do next time differently? If you guys need more details I got em it's just that I wrote this while walking so it might be bad. Still feel lIke trash but it's also a little motivation to get better.