This week, I got pretty close to f-closing a HB9 (slim body, D-cups, Harvard-educated, genuinely chill), and I realized how my paradigm for game is changing.

What I thought about seduction before

I always thought game was a method for me to get sex with women. My internal frame was that everyone wants sex. It was fun for me, and it's fun for the female.

My mindset now

Sex is still fun, but I believe that the game is just a method for me to create an intimate connection with women on a fundamental level, in which all the bullshit of societal expectations, looks, and such are gone. I become just a male and she's just a female. And for a moment at least, we are able to completely take joy in the simple existence of our bodies together. Seduction allows me to reveal myself in my desires in their barest forms and allows the girl to find security in that, and then do the same.

How it went down

I met the girl awhile ago, but logistics prevented us from ever setting anything up. We eventually did go out a few times, and I escalated (simple touching to kissing to more intimate touching), but it never seemed to go anywhere. She was actually cool, and we shared a bunch of interests, so I think I got a bit too invested, which prevented me from acting out my truest intentions for fear of rejection. Finally a few days ago, she was leaving the country and it was unsure if she was ever going to be coming back, so I said "Fuck it I want her," and called her at midnight the night before she left and made an excuse for going over to her place. I knew what it was about and so did she, but it was plausible deniability. She said yes.

I went over, we talked for a bit in her doorway, and she said we might see each other again in the future. I said I don't care about that, and just kissed her. We went into make out mode. She said she wasn't sure if she wanted this. I didn't say anything besides "I want you." Then I continued to kiss her. I led her inside and we started making out in her room. I pushed her down on her bed and more nipple-biting, finger-banging, and related events occured, but eventually I actually got LMR'd. To be fair, I pulled back and re-escalated three times, but after the third time of her saying "I don't want to do this tonight" then I said "okay." As I saw her off the next day, I found out that she has a boyfriend and she still had feelings for him. And I respect that.

The end and lessons learned

I was actually surprisingly satisfied with how it went down, even though we didn't have sex. This is because in the end I acted out on my desires authentically. I wasn't afraid to just over and start kissing her and just say the words "I want you" with conviction. Even a few short months before this episode, I probably wouldn't have had the strength to make the call at midnight and ask to come over with the intention of fucking, and I certainly would not have had the strength to just say a simple "I want you" and mean it. Seduction has taught me how to get more in touch with my fundemental desires and how to authentically express those desires.

And for me at least, that's what the Game is all about. It's about building the strength to communicate authentically with people around me. Through this honest communication, I can find people I actually like -- I would have never gotten close to such a cool girl before -- and build intimate connections with them. And in the end, by seeing that I'm just a man and she's just a female, I can have a fundemental emotional connection with her. And that's what so fun guys, just forgetting all the bullshit we've been taught as we grew up and just seeing each other for who we really our. Physical intimacy is only a side effect of building these connections with other people. Of course if I ever do meet her again, I'm totally fucking the shit out of her.