So, there was a female friend of mine who is currently doing engineering in same college as me. We met first day on engineering but started fwb only 5 months ago and it happened

first time automatically or i don't know if she trapped me into this (lol, cause she always says jokingly that she trapped me). I am her 6 body count (while she did penetration with only me, but other stuff she did already with her exes).

She is very red flag but i always cared for her because i didn't wanted to lose her and also considering that if i dont let her control me then she might leave me just like she left her exes (her exes always disturbs her, even though due to emotional attachment she cries but she didn't let them a chance again). First time we make out, she said she won't do it ever, i insist and she said no, but again we did again in my room (it is boys pg), and then it happened multiple times she always says no, i get fucked up and i long for it and then someday out of nowhere we find ourself doing it again, she says she feeling guilt everytime, so one day i said her, that as she don't see me as permanent because of family boundaries and all and i also dont see her as permanent (i lied because if she knows i like her she wont do fwb because she considers me a very good friend whom she won't try to hurt) so until passing out let's do it and after that we will part ojr ways happily and told her not to feel guilty about it, she agreed fwb and then recently after without guilty of 1-2 months, she told me to penetrate her, i did and after that we did penetration 3 days, she didn't felt anything but pain, no pleasure, i cummed inside her in my condom everytime after asking her to bear the pain for 1 more minute because she always says she cannot do more penetration.

But recently she messaged me she don't feel my touch anymore or sexually anymore like before, my touch is like a brother touch to her now and also because of guilt she wont continue fwb but she want me to care for her same way as i do. Look, i always know she comes back after feeling guilty but this time she said she don't feel sexually anymore and she feel my touch as brother touch, and that she won't do it anymore and we will remain pure platonic. While she knows, she is red flag type, that whenever she wants to do it she does, also, she accepted i am so much use of her in ber daily life and that she holds no use to me except sex and all. I wash ber clothes sometimes, wash ber footwear, she knows i admire her so much, i listen to whatver she says and follow it religiously, i let her vent out on me whever she is angry, i am like everything to her,and she acceps that she only likes to hang out with me and i accepted it too.

Now, its been almost 9th days without sex and all, i want atleast hug and cuddle but i know she won't do it, and i also cannot lose her as friend because it is relatively easy for her to leave me because of her breaking up with 5 bf before.

So, what to do subtly or anything that makes her come to my room again and then do sex (i am okay with no penetration but atleast cuddle). Also, i want so bad to hold her hand while we are out, but i cannot hold and open communication is not the key i know. I fear if i stop washing her clothes and all the services she likes, she might think i was doing it all because i was getting sex before and i might feel guilty as it is true. Also, today also, she gave me her clothes to iron cause i always said i do it because i like taking care of her and all... So my question is what to do so that she comes to me again for intimacy. or she won't do it again like never ? or if she will do, after like how many more days i need to wait.?

  1. We are students, I live in boys pg and she live in a flat currently eith her sister).

  2. She did penetration just few days back and she said me to do it, because she wanted to experience, we tried multiple days but she always felt pain and bleed.

  3. Its like her first love gave her some trauma on love so she don't love anyone now, but love anyone now, but gets emotionally attached easily.

  4. I really like her as a friend and value her but even though i am okay not having future with her i will part my ways but i seriously want to hold her hand and cuddle her.

  5. She always rejects my plans of hanging out and only hangs out with me when she wants to have shopping or vegetables or she feels like the mood, she knows it all and i always say yes because i anyway always want to be with her.