Hey Guys! First of all, I'm a 22 years old virgin college student. For a few weeks now, I decided that my life and me are not the way I want it to be. I realized, that life will not give me something for free and that I am the only person, who can change my life into better. Since I have some main issues, I decided to concentrate on these first and focus on myself befor I try to get any girls. So I fixed my style, started working out, stopped looking to porn and slowly saw some improvements. So I went out more, made some friends to hang out with. I threw myself in so many new situations and it worked, slowly I'm getting more confident.

Now here is my main problem. The last couple weeks I developed that feeling, that I NEED girls in my life to be happy. I know this is completely wrong mindset. I tried to concentrate on my life and Hobbys and everything, but it seems that i can't form a clear thought all day, because this feeling, that I'm not complete is always in my focus. I see all the couples on the street, the flirts in the club and the hardest is my roommate, who is pretty successful with girls. And all I can think is, I want this too. I really wanna have a good time with a girl from the club and fuck her and talk about life and laugh like he does in the room beside me. Like I need a girl to be happy and enjoy life. So I dont know what to do. The harder I try to focus on myself, the more depressed I get. I can't even find hapiness in music and playing guitar, which is normally my passion.

So I know this all may sound a bit weird and so on. But I just want to know if someone has an idea, what I can do about this. Generally I'm so happy with my self improvement journey so far and I get a slightly hint, of what I'm capable. But this desperate thought in my mind makes me so sad and jelous all the time.

Sorry for the grammar, this is not my native language.