that's all. She has boy toys in different area codes, firemen, police men, etc. Got isolated with her and well you know, doing what a man gotta do, but she just wasn't having it, but she was very nice about it and we'll still be friends I'm sure. But generally speaking, it sucked. Definitely feeds into your insecurities about yourself, most of which I can't change at this point in my life because everything that I could change I have changed. sucks man.

At this point I just need to stop telling myself what if I was less focused on career and had more adventures, or if I was taller or better looking, or was part of some other more masculine field. Whatevs!!!