She used to be my office colleague and is very good looking(I am too). Our relationship is very deep at this point, but the thing is our cultures are different. She said she would've married me on a whim if we were of same religion. The problem is now we can't live without each other. We are both virgins I have never touched or kissed her. She lives hundreds of miles away and we have met a few times. I would like to keep this relationship even if we get married to other people. Even if it is not sexual. She is the one who usually calls me first and talks for hours, but when she doesn't I get very restless. It feels strange for me to call first because she calls me like 2-3 times a day and talks for hours each time. I get really mad when she talks to other guys on call even though she says she is just checking up on them or it is for her own work. She likes to get attention from others and when she gets hurt by someone she comes back running to me. I tried to get away from her but couldn't. I do have a lot of other friends but a few with whom I connect deeply. So she has become a habit of mine. And I genuinely care about her and I want to stay with her and she wants the same. So far our relationship is very secret as she is scared if her family gets to know. How should I proceed with this? Is this relationship turning toxic for me?