Okay, so my mind has always been a troubled topic for me personally.

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Childhood wasn't pretty, parents fucked me up, blah blah blah.

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In my headspace however, I find myself glued to negativity on girls that I'm pretty much DONE with and it affects me physically.

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No seriously, when thinking about these girls accidentally or even when my head just thinks of them, its like a layer within my head inflates and tickles in the subtlest of ways and it is the most infuriating thing ever.

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So, what is the emotion? Tried to kiss a girl and she gave me the cheek. I hate EVERYTHING about the goddamned cheek.

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The way their lips thin out, the way they look to the side which is body language for "I have other things to do". Watch how Robert Downey Jr. does it when depicting Iron Man when he confronts Captain America in Avengers 1. How smug they act afterward.

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The worst one was the bitch who pretty much was on her cellphone for 99% of the date, gave me the cheek and then with the smuggest face ever said: "You can kiss my hand" and put her hand palm down.

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Now, I'm guessing a lot of you know something about body language. . . .You know how it works when somebody points their hand at you palm down, right? That's basically a very distinct way of asserting dominance. I didn't kiss her hand, I did my own little palm down back at her and as dispassionately as I POSSIBLY could said : "yeah, I'm not doing that." Deleted her number, I forgot her name too.

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(Wow. . . .I feel better right now. . .)

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But see, even though I feel better I know these emotions will come back and affect the way I see other girls. This isn't the only bad history I have with girls either, I also hate girls who look down when I try to kiss them and give me the forehead instead. (I don't actually hate them, this is hyperbole.)

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But see. . . I can clearly see that my mind is sticking to these negatives!

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After these girls, I went to Miami, made out with a girl, she tried to steal my sunglasses, she got the bouncers involved and almost did it. I got my revenge on the bar , so I count that as a win. 3 women were attracted to me over the course of that trip. I call that a win.

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But, like I told you, I'm finding it REALLY hard to let go of the negatives.

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What should I do about this?