my hole life i have been told / and or told I'm not good enough.

now i'm 23 and i pretty much believe it. i have negative though loops and I pretty much have a block to all things women.

I noticed in the club that when i look at girls. I don't care about that. what i mean buy that is. if there is a girl right in front of me who is my "10" i wouldn't just show SO MUCH DISINTEREST that she would just walk away. I'm not doing this on purpose. it's my AA making sure I don't succeed. it's like i block everything out.

how can i remove these blocks and open my self up. I'm so rusty in the club. i'm not loose and if a girl started grinding on my cock I would be too nervous and i would fuck it up.

when i'm in the club it's like I have AA in poker and when it's my turn to act i get so nervous on what to do. s i just fold... WITH AA!!!

how can i over come thins and change things?