I always go though cycles. I read stuff, make progress, start to have fun at parties, ect. and then suddenly BAM! Im back to day one, with a huuuuge amount of anxiety for approaching anyone. I was at this party last night and it was so terrible. I felt like I didn't fit in, I was carrying a cup but not talking to people because they were all drunker than me, having a blast, and involved in their own conversations that I didn't know how to contribute to. Then finally at the end of the night I worked up the courage to talk to this girl and she gave me the harshest rejection (I didn't know they could be that bad. Im still anxious about it). I know it was because I looked like such a weirdo at the party the whole time though. Its strange too because Im quite good looking but I guess Ive been relying on that as a crux. It didn't do shit for me last night though. So in summary, how often do you completely go back to square 1? It happens to me wayyy to often.