Back in HS I met this insanely gorgeous Brazilian at my school and to cut to the chase, we nearly dated. Only think holding us back was her parents who did not want her dating. Underneath the lines though I'm pretty sure it had to do something with me being black or American- I don't fucking know. She was pretty amazing and to be honest I've never seen anyone like her. Probably one of the most genuine girls I ever had the pleasure of meeting. End of the year came and everyone was signing yearbooks and she left a message in mine which pretty much said,"I'll be waiting <3". I could tell that was BS mainly because she was a solid 10, could get any guy she wanted, and she was going home to Brazil so you can guess why that meant nothing to me.

I recently got into daygaming so I could overcome my extremely painful past with girls, in hopes of getting better and more successful. Not a lot has come of it yet aside from a single prospect and improved experience with talking to girls in general. Last week actually I scored a number with a pretty awesome girl and while talking with her did boost my confidence a lot, I got a bit attached (something that I need to work on). Daygaming has helped me any many ways but I still find myself longing for something that never was. Just today I was on my facebook and I saw that the girl from HS was back in town and she was on a date with some guy from my graduating class. Even though we were really friendly and we almost dated, I was still extremely crushed when I saw the photo and to be honest it fucking sucks. I thought I was over her but that photo proved me to be terribly mistaken.

I'm going to go gaming tomorrow but I need some advice on how to forget this girl. It's been over a year and I'm sick of experiencing this crushing feeling of whatever this is. It's bringing back really bad memories and overwhelming feelings that I do not need. Will it go away the more I game?