I kicked back my Friday night by having three lady friends over my place. They were all long time buddies and I personally only knew one of them well. The other two I didn't know very well.

So there wasn't much to the beginning. I picked them up from a subway station and walked them back to my place. The walk wasn't far and on the way, I chatted with the girl I knew the most.

We get to my place and it becomes apparent that one of the girls has booze. I grab some glasses and soda and she takes out the bottle. Alcohol is poured, everyone finds a seat, the group is talking.

Here's where I get third wheeled, though. At first, the conversations the girls had amongst themselves didn't crop up much. There was lots of silence and space between conversations. I did a lot of talking but a lot of this space I couldn't fill up. I remember being asked once or twice if there were any board games, indicating to me that there wasn't much excitement in the room.

But I dunno. I wasn't feeling anxious. I just felt like I didn't have much to say. It was also a little upsetting though. I felt like I wasn't exciting enough, like I didn't bring enough excitement to the group. I was the host of the party after all and my guests were looking to me to speak a lot.

So eventually it just got to the point where the three girls talked amongst themselves about their own personals. I think this is actually a stage that happens - they shut you out unconsciously and it's hard to get back in. All i could do was make small comments and weasel my way into parts of the conversation but the topics came and went quickly.

I could also feel through their body language where they were closing themselves off from me. When people start closing themselves off from me, verbally and physically, I start acting a little weird and incongruent with myself because i try to make my way back into the frame of the picture. I swore once I caught one of the chicks shooting a glance to the other one across the room when I was talking to her about something useless.

At one point the ladies asked me to rap. And so I happily obliged. I put on some music and rapped a verse with my eyes closed. When i opened them, they weren't even paying attention to me.

I must be missing something here Seddit. I really want to be an MC in situations like these but some shit just hits me and before I know it, i'm behind my game. The talking picked up a little towards the end but they left anyways. Anyone have any experiecne with what I'm talking about?