9 months ago I drafted to the army in my country. (It's mandatory) and two weeks before that my then gf cheated on me and I broke up with her. That's when all this shit started...

I drafted into combat and eventually got over my ex but I just sucked at everything I did in training. No matter how hard I tried I was always last at everything and that's what made my confidence disappear. I also have sleeping problems and that didn't help either. I got really depressed and didn't feel like myself at all because of my sleep deprivation and even got sent to a psychiatrist.

After training I got sent to be a driver for an officer and Im still counted as combat but I get to sleep normally and go home every weekend.

Here's the deal, throughout all of this I didn't really have any contact with girls except for friends and got laid with two girls that are both 4s in my opinion in that whole time cause I barely got home.

Now that I do get home every weekend I can't seem to talk to girls let alone approach them. I'm terrified by beauty. Even if a girl comes up to me to ask me something I get so shy it's hard for me to speak. I used to be completely fine with girls, atleast better than most of my friends. I tried reading models but I can't seem to actually get myself to be vulnerable I just freeze every time there's a pretty girl around.

If anyone has experienced anything like this and can somehow help me I would appreciate it so much. Sorry for the wall of text...