I broke up with my ex a year ago. I thought I was such a good player I could find better women. Now every time I do pickup and fail, I am reminded that I could have had a content relationship with my ex. When I look at my life and the despair I face, I cling to memories of being with my ex. The worse I feel the more I regret breaking up with her. Every time I fail I idealize what it would be like to have stayed with my ex. How can I save myself from myself?